The last few weeks I've been feeling much better. The stones are gone and it seems like the infection and exhaustion are headed out too. Praise the lord!
The good thing about being um... Indisposed this summer is I had a lot of time to do things like art and Internet courses. I'm really praying and looking hard for a job, and weighing my options of moving, but it's been a slow and frustrating go. If you'd like to pray for that I would be eternally thankful!
The downside of this downtime is I'm getting restless. Now that I'm getting much better I feel restless. Is much rather do something. Travel, work, crossfit (lol no.) unfortunately, I realize that restlessness takes its toll on my spirit. I have time to read and pray and really wait on God, but the humanity in me wants to game or take a walk or anything other than that. I want to be near to God , but I don't want to seek him out. Lots of people do that in relationships everywhere, but it isn't healthy for any relationship. Especially when that relationship is as important as your God, or your best friend, or your wife. I suppose I best sit down and do a heart checkup instead of looking online for more and more jobs. I need to move forward, yes. And handing out resumes to 20 plus places and phone calls, and book publishers, and school upgrades are all very good, but I also need to be ok where I'm at. I've always wanted to do more than I alone am capable of. So my prayer is this. God, you know my path. Show me the map please, I've had a long enough pit stop. Whenever you're ready I guess :)
