the struggles of doctrine vs emotion

Lately my life has been chaos. My father and sister lost their licenses, my mother was diagnosed with chronic fatigue, I've been in a legal battle for my home because my landlord is so sick and her *cough* possibly evil senile OCD mom *cough* wants me out this weekend. Work has not even been able to cover wage cost, there is not enough of us to cover any sickness, I have been diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety and IBS. I have not made any friends in the last year here, and I'm tired. I'm done.
     So what do I do? therapy. What does therapy do? It makes me admit that I am a Bisexual christian with a learned distrust of organised religion and codependency issues because of the alcoholism I grew up around. The thing it doesn't do is tell me how to fix it.
    I searched the bible over and over, trying to find why I've been taught these feelings are wrong, and turning up evidence that the feeling itself is not wrong, not my fault, and not my choice. What I found instead is love. Yes, the emotions that come along with that confession are tough, but the emotion and feeling are not wrong, acting on it is. More so because I have an amazing man that I am going to marry.
It's still so strange that all the christian stigma is about sex. Premarital? The bible DOES say that you should be faithful; but think about this. They got married at 13. How freaking old are they when they start? Scary. Gay? eeeewww Sodom and Gomorrah! well, they didn't know about germs, or condoms. and God seems to want us to have kids. Does that make not having kids wrong? Well... it may seem that way in some circles. Sodom's sin, according to Ezekiel, was pride. Every single person struggles with pride. Our sense of self gets in the way of everything.
A lot of the rules set out were primarily about bodily safety. They didn't know about HIV. They weren't allowed to eat shrimp because they didn't know if they prepared it wrong, they would die of food poisoning. The rigorous hand washing? Again, they were slaves. They had no idea how to keep themselves healthy, and vaccines didn't exist.
    I do not feel that it's wrong to feel attraction, its acting on it. It's not wrong to be angry, Its wrong to act out on it. You will and can be forgiven, but its best not to make it a lifestyle.