take care of yourself

Ok,  so I guess it's time I tell you all what I have (or have not) been doing.
First, I am currently working at Brightwood again. There have been challenges, not all of them will be posted here, but there have also been miracles. Let's start with those shall we?
     Last year there was a little girl who came to camp. A beautiful young black girl with a horrible home life. I don't know much about it except she refused to have anything to do with God including chapels, refused to participate in anything, and every night she would go to bed screaming about how much she hates herself and her life. So I prayed.  This year she's back. She is excited about chapel, asks questions about God, smiles, and has even made friends! this is the type of miracle I work for. I love to see kids come back every year.

  Unfortunately, last week I had to take time off for severe pain (possibly cysts). I recovered, went back to work, and... disaster struck again. I hadn't been feeling well for a little while, and since I spend quite a bit of time in the kitchen, I stayed in bed bast breakfast. As I got up to talk to the head cook, I felt more lightheaded than normal, but decided to ignore it. Sidetracked by a counsellor needing help, I took a little girl to the nurse office, and on my way to bring her back to the counsellor, I got confused. The little girl took me by the hand and tried to guide me to a bench. next thing I remember is I was lying on the ground in front of the doors with people staring at me and others trying to round up the kids out of the way! Which began a series of doctors tests. I do not have Mono, I am not pregnant, anaemic, diabetic and many other things I am happy to know.  Turns out I had a bit of the flu, paired with a cold, dehydration, too much heat, low blood pressure, high stress and lack of sleep, and those many little things were enough to make me black out!
So I'm back in bed. I have not been taking care of myself, and that's something I should remember. I am just as important as the people around me, and I am no use when I am unhealthy. I help others and make them rest, yet I was told that I kept apologising to the nurse helping me, and I don't even remember!  yes, I care for others. but, remind me I'm worth being cared for too, because I forget.

But there are always more good things than bad, if you look hard enough! I went to the Edmonton art walk and got inspired, (so go buy some of my art on FB!) I Skyped many of my awesome international friends, I applied to SDF (still don't have the finances, but God will provide.) and I slept for more than eight hours. Thank you God for the verse "Be still, and know that I am God."