The last month and a half have been crazy when it comes to change. I moved to Calgary late November, turned 20 on December first, and started a job the very next day. Within three weeks I had been transferred, worked boxing day and Christmas eve, moved again, and hosted my family at my new place.
As amazing as it has been, moving on and being a so called "contributing adult," It's a challenge. A brand new town, new job, new roommates, and a world full of strangers just going along in life has thrown me into a bit of confusion and disconnect. I'm really enjoying Urban Barn, (the job) and I've been making decent sales, but what I truly want to make is friends.
God is truly showing me how his planning goes, and I trust that even in the transition stage of life, with the budgeting issues and transit and loneliness, He's got something big and amazing coming this year. For now, I'll push myself to excel and connect. I've made myself some goals this year to help me deal with the changes, so my depression doesn't go haywire :P I feel as if everyone should take a bit of it home, it really helps me with anxiety and productivity.
- Read a chapter every day. (I do bible, you can do self help, fantasy, whatever. It helps to calm you down and focus)
- Save a small percentage (I have a fairly tight budget, but ice cream and emergency funds are a must)
-Invest a small percentage in the future. (wedding plans, travel, school, all included in this)
-Choose one thing to excel at this week (it could seriously just be cleaning the toilet)
-Do one art piece a week (I love art. It channels my emotions in a positive way, and helps me relax and function. You could choose anything that makes you happy. go jogging, bake a cake, take some selfies.)
-Learn something every week ( I do Khan academy finance courses. they've really helped me out in the renting/budgeting thing.)
-When youre stressed, fearful, frazzled, or inexplicably sad, do these things-
- list good things in life (fluffy puppies, hot sauce, blankets)
-list your virtues (diligent, helpful, can stick my tongue out and touch my nose)
-three good things that happened today
-list what may have triggered the negative emotion, then attempt to fix it. you'll feel better even if all you do is understand why you feel this way.
-eat, shower or nap. even these little things help you feel like a human instead of a blob of despair.
- talk to someone you love. (call your mom!)
Yeah, maybe it seems over the top, but it helps my brain when I feel like an overloaded circuit. It may not help everyone, but it might be a step towards it. If this is what I need to do to not shut down, its a good thing to do. Everyone has coping mechanisms. My sister's is reading, my moms is rearranging furniture, my best friends is fudge brownies. Its not bad to have them, just remember that they are not everything. don't hide in them, because it does consume you if you do. And yes, this is also a letter to myself.
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