pain

I haven't updated in a while, because i feel i have nothing worth people listening to. but I have to do this for me. I hurt. I have anxiety, depression, and fatigue and pain from pretty much whatever I eat. work has been hard. long distance engagements have been hell. loneliness is pretty much my best friend at the moment, and i am so tired. so very tired. but i have something to learn. i don't know what, but it doesn't matter. i know its worth it even if i cant see it. it has to be. I'm not on this earth for pain. I'm here for something bigger and better.